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oct 3 ober (kuju hachi) it's time for some winter hibernation the cold is waking me up out of my vague dreamless slumber i don't want to wake i don't want to be alive i don't want to be in the coldness of the world what's a friend how can you care about anyone when to cope with being alive you must care about nothing or is there just nothing to care about what can you care about when nothing has meaning how can anything mean anything at the center of everything is nothing. at my center is a black sphere of nothingness i am god i am everything i am nothing what is love recognizing a part of yourself in something what is love something that does not have nothingness at its center what is at the center of nothingness what om namaha shantih ommmm there is noone but me and i am nothing ommmmmmm go to sleep, little child don't let the angels wake you . do i have any idea what love is don't leave me all alone! i exist within you and without you who am i. you exist within me and if you go away, who am i? i am an infinitely large, infinitely small circle of nothingness love closes in. oh poor little heart keeps on pumping love closes in on you surrounds you but do you notice? if i am nothing then there are no parts of me in anything else and there is nothing to love nothing loves itself it does it does not it is the same if i am nothing and at the center of everything is nothingness then i can recognize a part of myself in everything hey ho i don't want to live hey the music stopped and i can't sing no more i don't want to wake up without the part of me that used to be there before i went to sleep there the singing is over now i can dance not in this never ending light not in the cold dance with me, my friend, my little sleepy one, let's dance ourselves back into nothingness and forget that we ever woke up alone in this cold place . |