jan 2004.


it's odd.
in the shower i noticed how swollen my labia was.
engorged like a little balloon.
from having been aroused.
but it was only swollen like that on one side.
is that a common thing for female bodies to do?
or do they usually swell on both sides?
or is it an unusual swelling in the first place?

it's a bit annoying that one's body responds
to one's mind being aroused like that,
but that even when one's mind isn't aroused anymore,
the body is so much slower to back down.
it's an odd feeling, not being aroused,
but having swollen labia.

is that what it's like for males,
when they get erections?

is that what it's like for pubescent boys,
when they are easily aroused by a short-lived stimulus,
but then left with an embarrassing protuberance
long after the fact?

sometimes it feels like i'm going through puberty.
now.
maybe i am?